There will always be a special place in my heart for my firstborn son, Caleb, who changed my life forever.
Now, twenty-two years later, that special place was enlarged with the arrival of Joshua, Caleb's firstborn son.
I cannot stop myself from making comparisons between Caleb and Joshua.
I think I compare because I am simply amazed at the intricate beauty of the circle of life. I fully embrace Joshua's unique individuality, yet, everytime I see him, I see Caleb. From his cry and quirky sleep patterns to his strength, early signs of a talent for mobility and his dimpled cheeks.
He is the most beautiful baby I have ever seen; besides his daddy and his two uncles! He is a precious bundle of joy disguised by the burps, poopy diapers and crying.
When he opens his eyes to look at me, I melt. I am held captive by his gaze. I am wondering what he actually sees; what is going through his head; does he know me, his Grandma. I am a hostage of an almost 9 pound newborn! There is no amount of ransom that could ever be paid for my release!If i didn't know better, I would think this Grandma heart could explode from all the emotions it is experiencing at this time of my life.
As he grows, Joshua will begin to develop his own looks, personality, temperment, talents and attitudes. For now, I am more than content to see his daddy reflected in him. I cherish the memories the Lord allowed me to make with Caleb when he was a baby. I am enjoying having the emotions attached to these memories stirred up in me again as i make memories with Joshua now.
I am humbled as I count my blessings, beginning with two firstborn sons. I'll love you forever, Caleb and Joshua.
